Lost Passion
Only few friends know the reason why I’ve been missing out on a lot lately. It seems like I’m enjoying, to an extent, the company of strangers more than that of my own family and friends, although most of the time I prefer being alone - as always. Let’s just say that I’ve been off for the past few months.
The year’s coming to an end, and there are quite a few things that I regret wholeheartedly. But then, we can’t turn back time, can we? And even if given the chance, I still won’t try to. Experience is such a great teacher and eye-opener. I still resent myself for being me; I guess that will not cease. Sure, there are family and friends who are always ready to back me up, and I’m forever grateful for their love and support. But I’ve realized that I have no one to fend for me but myself (now tell me if that makes sense). Thus, I have no one to blame for everything I’ve done but myself.
Some of the things I’ve been thinking about lately:
- Transferring from UP Baguio to UP Diliman has been my greatest regret. I will probably blame myself for the rest of my too-short life. I’m simply not happy in Diliman. I hate it there, as much as some people I know do. Maybe even more. I have no idea if I can remain there any longer. I hope I can. But it keeps coming down to the self-pity I feel every freaking time. I don’t deserve to be in UP. I don’t deserve the education I’m getting. I don’t even deserve to exist.
- This is the last time that I will address this issue. It’s all over and done with, and it just gets ridiculous as it gets old. I know I’ve hurt a lot people, intentionally or not, and for that I am deeply and sincerely sorry for all the mistakes I’ve done and hurtful things I’ve said. This apology goes especially to the fans of Manny “Pacman” Pacquiao and the man himself, whom I have indirectly insulted. Apology is also called for to the ones who have defended me - I’m sorry for engaging you in this mess. This might seem a little too late, but I really don’t care. I remember an email I’ve received last month that says I should apologize even if I don’t mean it, just for the sake of giving my haters what they demand and deserve (which is wrong). I do not say “I am sorry” and not mean and feel it. I know I’ll earn many people’s ire with my next statement, but I will not take back what I’ve typed. I still do not, and probably never will, like Pacman, boxing, and the statue plan, but I will try to be…(more) constructive…next time around.
Please do not force your beliefs on me though. One does not have to be a fan of a fellow Filipino to be patriotic. And I still won’t read the comments left on the last 3 entries on my old domain. I simply stopped reading and responding to them because the issue has gotten way out of hand. Anyway, again, I apologize to everyone. - “Comrades,” sorry because you’ve completely misunderstood my actions. I refuse to accept and acknowledge any further messages from you because I simply cannot grasp the reason why you should think that my reason for being gone for a while is somewhat built “without objective foundations.” If only what I’ve read are the criticisms (which had been auto-moderated), I wouldn’t have any problems with anything at all. I would’ve gracefully accepted that rectification is in need. But to get a message that insults not only me but also the people who visit this blog is more than what I can take. You have insinuated that I’m as “shallow” as the people who have posted what you call “nonsense” comments. Know what? Sometimes you people just go overboard. Get these points because I certainly won’t repeat them: I was sick - not that you care - so I wasn’t able to participate directly in the boycott (armchair activism, eh?); I wasn’t referring to myself when I said that sometimes, people have to be given time to release shit to keep their sanity (just because you didn’t see me for a few days, you assumed that I was releasing shit liberally); and, it isn’t angst talking when I said that maybe I should strip myself of the label “activist,” so I wouldn’t have to represent you. Talk about building a mountain out of a molehill. And I keep on stressing the “nanlalalaki” part because it’s the most you-don’t-know-me line I’ve read all my life, and it’s just plain insulting on my part that a comrade would even assume or even think that (as if I have the right to be a playgirl, really). Finally, I will write here what I want to write. The hell if everyone gets dismayed. Yeah, well, lalo akong nagpapakasasa sa kabuktutan sa prosesong ginagawa kong ito, pero banas na banas lang talaga ako, and I can really use that “releasing shit” time off right now.
I still have lots more, but this entry is getting pretty long. This might be my last entry for this year. I’m terribly tired. Insomnia must be taking its toll on me. My health has been bitchy lately. I’m coping with difficult personal issues, and some people are making it doubly hard for me to get by. Thank you, my friends, for always trying to help and understand my very eccentric personality. Thank you, detractors and critics, for making me stronger and realize my shortcomings and wrongdoings. Thank you, everyone, for just being a part of my life.
So sorry if I haven’t made a gift for you - no image editor. Computer has been reformatted (goodbye, old files). Hope a simple greeting will still make your day.
Happy Holidays! And Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it.
It is nice that you are back again! I will update my links later.
Why not try to answer the questions on my game and who knows you might win. hehehe
Anyway, Merry Christmas to you dear!
I expected a new domain name… haha. but it’s cool, i like misteryosa! Just go visit my blog… chrstimas for me won’t be happy like other’s.. But i hope you enjoy your christmas with friends and family.
Ahh! You’re back!! I’ll change your URL as soon as possible…
Hehe, I actually know what you mean about getting away from everyone you know… Sometimes I feel like that…
*sigh*, I know what you mean about regretting stuff… But then again… Maybe it just happens this way because something better is on its way??
I’m sorry that you regret transferring!
Aww, I’m sorry about your health… *hugs* I hope you’re doing well, though!
Take care, Shari!
Hehe, I have to reformat my computer sometime soon also… But I’m going to be moving my files over to my sister’s laptop. LOL. Anyways, take care!
Hello
Happy holidays!
You’re from Baguio?
It’s nice that you’re back! I missed your blog. :P
Take care!
nice to know that you’re back.
Merry Christmas Shari!
Merry Christmas Shari!
It’s good to know that your blog is now up and running - hooray for that!!
Your entry is quite long but I read it anyway. Hmmm… I was an (quote and unquote) activist myself but I opted not to join any organization. I still believe that a single person can make a difference. Besides, some of those people joining those orgs (hey, not all, but some of the people I know - just to make things straight) are cowards and need other people (with big numbers mind you) to back them up. I don’t know - it’s just how a view it. I have friends who are “independently” activist themselves too, and I was joining them in their “rallies” from time to time if I believe what they’re fighting for. I prefer to join those “independent activists” (though there are some orgs that have this genuine passion and cause too) as I can see their REAL passion in revolutionizing our beloved country - the Philippines. Theyre genuine and true and not just some fake activists roaming around our country.
And yeah, I hope I wont get nailed with this comment. hahahaha!
thats a lot to think about.
merrychristmas.
merry christmas ate shari!
found your new domain kay monalisa, one of your hostees.
haba ng entry mo sis, pero i like it, lalo na yung bandang huli.. wala akong masabi. sensya na, greet na lang kita, merry christmas!
ay ito na may naisip na ko. you deserve to exist! and you deserve to be in UP Diliman. di ko din alam ang dahilan, pero i know na deserve mo un
Merry Christmas, Shari.
I’m sorry about the P. Idol tickets.
Honestly speaking, you were the first one I thought of, but I got the extra ticket around 10 minutes before the show, and I didn’t know how I would be able to contact you since I didn’t have your number, and that was around the time when you weren’t online much. Sorry. 
(despair)
im sorry to hear that year end isnt going so well for you, please take care of your health and stay strong mentally. since whats done has been done, choices have been made, look forward and not turn back. dont regret anymore, its not worth your time. 
hey there, firstly merry christmas to you
happy holidays to you too.
Shari, just a thought, you should have imported some of your entries from misteryosa.org to this new domain. I usually do it thru the use of RSS. Mas madali kasi kesa mag export pa ako ng entries ng database, mag edit tapos mag import ulit.. hehehe
Chase: I wasn’t able to enter the contest. Sad.
Nina: Read my comment on your blog.
We’re here. *hugs*
Chau: Thanks…
Elle: I’m not from Baguio, I just studied there for a year.
Shai: Thanks so much. Merry Christmas too!
Ate Ems: I’ve made it clear that just because they believe in something, I have to believe in that too. I also choose what I fight for. Honestly, I really didn’t plan on joining any org in Diliman, but some things just have to be thoroughly analyzed and thought over. In the end, I decided to join na lang, thanks to someone’s words of wisdom and persuasion. I have nothing against independent activists, as I once was one.
However, two of the points in joining an organization is to learn together and to settle minor differences and personal doubts na pwedeng maging dahilan ng isang tao para hindi na kumilos (parang ako). I’m not saying that an org has the answer to all questions, but the chance of people working together as one effectively is higher than if we’re all independent, diba? Siguro nga, some orgs like to back their asses with big numbers, pero siguro we’re wise enough to make decisions and take on responsibilities. And it feels good to share the same passion with other people and work with them towards the real reform we need. It’s like a band - you share the same passion (music), so you work together (play). 
But heck, why am I typing this? Baka sabihin sa aking, “Practice what you preach.” LOL. Anyway, I won’t import anything from my old domain. I’d like to start clean. And actually, I love to play with the database tables. Haha!
Han: Thanks for the visit. Merry Christmas.
Janelle: Thank you for the sweet comment.
I sure hope you’re right.
Lexie: Daya talaga, haha! It’s okay, ito naman.
Rei: Great comment. Makes sense. Thanks!
I’ve not read what’s been going on so my only knowledge is what you’ve written in this post. But I would say nobody has the right to be treated unfairly or called names because they express an opinion. I’m a strong believer that you should say what you believe and am all for debating topics but there is a line that a lot of people cross where it becomes cruel. I hope that in future you can express yourself without fear of what responses you will get.
Wishing you a very Happy Christmas from the Comment Whore! xxxx
duh!!!!…….
good girl
i just dont get it why you would say “I don’t like PACMAN…and never will…” and at the same time not posting your reason “WHY”. if there is something you do not like and firm about it, there SHOULD BE A REASON for it. what is your reason? i am not forcing you to like PACMAN, but i dont get the reason why u insulted him b4. Was it him who requested for the statue? parade? or party? IT WAS NOT HIM. All he did was to fight for the name of the country. It was the politicians who created publicity, and yet you call PACMAN monkey and not say anything against the politicians who are behind the “statue’ concept??? like what I said, I dont get it. I’m just curious as to where you base your statements. You are a JOURNALIST. Be a genuine JOURNALIST, have reason and basis for your statements.
If I disrespected you b4, that was because you offended me. But at least you apologized now, and I am willing to apologize as well if I offended you. But you did not explicitly state you were hurt anyway or got offended by the pro-PACMAN posts. If you want people to apologize to you, say it explicitly, that is the only way people will see your HUMILITY. I know this is a little harsh, but a lot of people perceived you as PROUD of something you did wrong, HUMILITY has to be seen. But then again, like you always say “YOU DONT CARE…”.
You still say you wont change anything if u can turn back time, which is contradictory with your desire to write “constructive criticisms…” ANO ba talaga gusto mo gawin??? YES, we really cannot turn back time, but for the sake of argument, if you cud really turn back time, i advice you change your statements. That is one way of fulfilling your desire to make constructive statements, and to show the world that indeed you are stronger and learned from experience……….how can you show that you learned something if you still choose to do the same mistake if given a chance to go back in time? IRONIC, isn’t it???
you seem sad, but happiness is a choice.
you say experience is an eye-opener, but i’m sorry to say this, i dont think you have opened your eyes yet.
but then again, Thank You for the apology. Probably there is a reason that these things are happening to you. Probably what you’re doing is not enough, probably you need to do more.
Geez your mind is just so full at the moment huh? Well, don’t forget to take a break now and then eh ?
Merry Christmas and take care
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again thats your belief
and i respect that. however, let me clarify that i was not addressing it to all orgs, i know some orgs that seemed to be “fake” for me. Ang kinaiinisan ko dun sa ibang orgs na yun, wala silang pinagkaiba sa mga kinaiinisan nila. I dont see real passion in their causes and rallies. Sad but there are some na ganun and its true.
Hey Ate Shari!! Belated Merry Christmas!! Sorry if I haven’t visited you for a while… I guess blogging has become my lost passion too… hehe. I do hope things get better in Diliman
The year’s about to end a new beginning awaits 
I hope that you’ll be happier next year!! TC always!!! 
Glad you are back dear shari! I already changed you link…
TC…*hugs*
Claire: Thank you.
I do not really fear the responses I’d get in expressing an opinion. Just have to acknowledge the fact that I’ve hurt some people in making a certain opinion.
PACMANs Boy: I have emailed you my response. That is, if you’ve given your real email address. If not, then I’d post some points in here. Please provide your true email address so I can send you (again) the whole response.
Feelings sometimes have no basic foundations - you just feel. Sure, I’m happy that Filipinos are making themselves known around the world, but I beg to disagree about Pacquiao putting the Philippines on the world map. Everyone has done that, not an individual. Not a group. But all the Filipinos. In the process that you’re saying that a certain someone put Philippines on the map is putting down your own race - you have no FAITH in your own people. You’re greatly assuming that Philippines is NOTHING until someone came along, which is really very contradictory with being “patriotic.” My mistake is not thinking that Pacman’s famous would get hurt too. And in my honest opinion, what we should be proud of is not the individual, but the whole nation - for supporting and rooting for their fellowman.
I never said that Pacman asked for his statue to be erected. And I think the media doesn’t have to take all the blame, because it wouldn’t be a hit kung hindi po kinakagat ng masa, diba? Filipinos should be responsible for themselves. Yan po kasi ang hirap sa atin, we blame others for things when we can have done something ourselves. And mind you, I’ve said a lot worse about those politicians.
I do not practice online journalism. I am NOT a journalist. I am a Journalism STUDENT (not anymore in the near future though). Magkahiwalay ang pagiging “Shari the Journ student” ko sa “Shari the normal boring person.”
Kaya sinabi ko pong I don’t care kung “a little too late” na ang apology ko dahil maraming hindi tatanggapin ang apology na yun, bagkus lalo pa po akong titirahin at babatikusin, at para sa akin I’ve done my part na - and I did it with sincerity. Kung ayaw po tanggapin, wala na naman po akong magagawa dun, hindi ba? And no, you have not offended me, so I’m not asking for an apology. You people do not have to apologize simply because you have your own opinions, which, although most are very harsh and ill, I respect. I do not demand apologies, kasi kung ganun lang din naman po na kailangan ko pang gatungan kayo para lang po mag-sorry, wala rin pong saysay ang pag-apologize. Dahil ang apology po ay ibinibigay lamang if you’re really sorry for what you’ve done. But if someone from you Pacman fans wants to apologize, then thank you.
And no, I still won’t change anything if I can turn back time. Bakit? Kasi paano ko po matututunan yung pagkakamali ko ngayon kung hindi ko ginawa yung ginawa ko, hindi po ba? Kung hindi ko po ginawa yun, wala pong mangyayari ngayon. Paano po ako matututo? Ang pagbabago po ay nakikita at napapansin. Kung babaguhin ko po ang nakaraan, hindi niyo po makikita ang pagbabago, don’t you think?
So it isn’t irony, as what you’ve said. It’s harsh reality. You cannot learn from your mistakes if you choose to NOT do those mistakes when you turn back time.
Melanie: Yeah. I think I’m thinking too much. Hehe.
Ate Ems: I know.
You’ve never generalized, so I don’t have any reason to believe you were doing it then. And let me just clarify too that I agree with you. I just have to say something, well, positive, about joining an organization of people whom you share the same passion with. 
Tiff K: You’ve been gone for too long. Come back, come back!
Ate Rebecca: Thank you so much. *hugs*
TO SHARI:
Yes, that email address is valid, though I only open it when I am at home, not in the office, and I open your blogs and others when I am working not at home. Its complicated……
It seems that in your response, you do not believe in the power of ONE FILIPINO. In the boxing world, boxing enthusiasts DO NOT REMEMBER the crowd. They remember the person who emerges victorious from the ring. Read the articles (year-end artiles) from respective Sports Magazines, Boxing Scene, MAX BOXING, Sports Illustrated, all awarted PACMAN as the fighter of the year, a person who “possesses the heart and courage of a true warrior…..”. Now tell me, is that not putting the Philippines in the World MAP?? I think it is. In addition to this, a heroic action of ONE PERSON represents the whole nation. You are right that ALL FILIPINOS are the ones putting the Philippines in the WORLD MAP, but this usually happens through an INDIVIDUAL. The bottomline is, when in comes to patriotism, let us not separate an action of an individual from a group, what we should consider is the action of a Filipino person representing his nation.
I also never said Philippines was nothing before PACMAN. How did you derive at that conclusion? You are right, you are still a student journalist, but that should not stop you from claiming that you are a genuine journalist. What is the use of studying if you do not belive in yourself. The only way for you to come out as the best journalist in your school is to consider yourself as a genuine journalist already. And the best way to become a genuine journalist is to have BASIS for your statements. Again, you do not post in here the reason why you don’t like him. Think of what he did, he simply fought. That’s all he did. he never bragged about anything. Now where is the basis or your reason for hating him??
The reason why you ask for an apology is not because you admit you got offended, but because you want to defend your dignity. If somebody called you “bad words…” don’t you think you have the right to defend yourself and your dignity?? Shari, many died to defend their rights. Asking people to apologize is easier than giving up one’s life for his/her right. Don’t allow anybody to step on your dignity and crush your personhood. Demand an apology if you think your dignity has been trampled on. It is a mark of a brave person. If you don’t, everybody around you would be satisfied at bullying you.
And the thing about turning back time is only for the sake of argument, I explicitly stated it.
My only point in there is, ” why make the same mistake if you already know the lessons,….the reason for coming back to the past is to MEND or AVOID mistakes, and NOT to REDO those mistakes…”
I have to go home, kakatapos lng ng shift ko, i’ll be sleeping and tonight, when i come to the office again, i’ll be opening up PACMAN related blogs, including those that belong to his critics. I do this because I see the real Filipino in PACMAN.
Hi dearie! sorry if i don’t have the time to read your whole entry.:)
But about your lost of passion.
“it’s not passion when it’s forced, it comes naturally.”
I hope you get what I mean.:)I changed your link already. I hope you could link me as well.
Happy holidays!
PACMANs Boy: I believe in the power of one Filipino. And well, excuse me. I’ve already told you I don’t like boxing. I don’t know anything about it, nor what the boxing critics say and think. You think that Pacman’s victory is putting the Philippines on the map; I think Philippines is on the map long before the Pacquiao era. And I’m not separating an individual’s success to a group’s, I’m just saying that you do not have to attribute everything to Pacquiao, because he’s not all it (as what most people say). The “whole nation” that we should be proud of includes Pacquiao and other individuals, of course. Kaya nga whole nation eh (I’m not being sarcastic, just stressing, hehe). And I said that in the process of saying that someone has “put the Philippines on the map,” it’s like saying that the Philippines was nothing - it didn’t exist at all - before. Siguro, it’d be better if you say na nare-acknowledge ang Pilipinas dahil kay Pacquiao. Iba pa rin po kasi ang sabihing nilagay ng isang tao ang isang bansa sa mapa.
My basis for my statement is my feelings. And my feelings have no basis at all. Should there be a reason why I dislike him? Kailangan po ba talaga meron? Kung ganun, required po ba akong magustuhan si Pacman? Sure, there are lots of reasons why people should like him, pero hindi kasi ganun ang akin. Kapag sinabi kong ayaw ko sa isang damit, kailangan po bang may iba pang basehan nun bukod sa feeling of dislike? C’mon, we’re rational beings, you should know what I’m getting at. Kung gusto niyo pong tanggapin yung mga rason niyo sa pagkagusto sa kanya, wag niyo po sanang ipilit pa sa akin. I just don’t like him. And excuse me po, I happen to know an ABS-CBN director’s niece who got offended because of Pacman’s, well, “pride.” And I’m not inclined to tell the story here.
As for the asking for apology thing, I think I’ve already “defended my dignity” by apologizing. I’m not refusing to demand an apology because I don’t want to admit that I got offended (and really, I’m NOT), but because I just don’t think that everyone owes me one. Isa pa, overemotional po ang mga tao nun because I “trampled” on their idol. Nasa tao na po yung if s/he wants to issue an apology.
Re: turning back time, hmmm…. I still do not get your point. Besides the fact that we can’t turn back time, if you come back to the past to mend or avoid mistakes, you won’t learn anything sa present and future, kasi nga you did nothing wrong na. Gawd, di ata tayo nagkaka-intindihan dito.
Well, take care na lang po, and till then.
Toni: True. Thank you.
Response to :
balik mo na yun quicktags mo! hahahha.. hirap mag quote eh.. hahaha! :-D
Merry Christmas.
(Ha, sorry if that’s such a simple comment.)
Sometimes, it’s easier to talk to a stranger about your life’s troubles than with your friends or family. It’s because at those times, tipong, malalabas mo yung sama ng loob mo without even caring if that person would remember it or not.
You started fresh again?
Ate Ems: I’ve edited your comment. Hehe
I’m not done uploading and activating the plugins. I still have to sort out things first.
Ellie: Merry Christmas too!
No problem with a “simple” comment.
Euri: True, true. Anyway, yeah, I’m starting fresh again. Boo me! Haha!
replied to your email
hi shari!! I miss ya so much.. I have a new blog na.. it’s http://melle.angelic-pink.net so how are you na? merry christmas.. mwah!!!
I’m sorry you seem so full of regrets. They are destructive things, and will eat away at you until you learn to just move on. Life really is too short to spend so long thinking about what you regret, what you would have done differently… just learn from mistakes and move on.
Happy holidays - take some time out for yourself.
♥ xoxo
SHARI!! i missed you! missed your writings.
cool! .com ka na….haha. easier to remember.
anyway, will be here for you when you need me.
Happy Holidays!
Hi Shari. It’s really nice to have you back. I hope you had a lovely Christmas celebration with people closest to your heart.
I also have my share of regrets. Many times, I regret doing some things and hope I could just turn back time. But I guess they will always be a big part of everybody’s life. They make us wiser and stronger. It’s not always easy, but we should try our best to learn from our mistakes.
Sorry to hear that you’re not happy in your present school. I hope that something good will happen to make you feel better about the situation.
I wish you a promising year ahead. Take care and God bless.
There’s no problem with having different opinions, the problems lie mostly in our delivery.
Seems that there’s little discussion here on activism. I might as well voice out some of my opinions. Honestly, I don’t like the “mainstream” activists. I’m not against the concept or cause of activism but as time passes by the essense is being lost. Kaya nga ayaw ko ang SSC dito sa Uni ko. Hindi lang walang basis ang statements, punong puno pa ng CRAB MENTALITY. I’ve seen it myself during last sem’s election. The problem is, ang daming nabrainwash. Yung party na yun even didn’t come up with a steadfast and concrete platform. Si ganito ganyan, si ganito ganun.. WTF?!… kaya wala akong binoto dun… I won’t vote for talangkas… It’s even funny how some activists are all-out for democracy when they don’t even know the whole of democracy. For most part, it’s a game of numbers. Majority rules. Kahit isa lang ang lamang. The Treaty of Paris(regrading the acquisition of the Philippines, Guam, Marianas and Puerto Rico) was ratified because of “democracy”. The No vote lost against the Yes vote by a single vote only. Democracy can result to a mob rule…. Since it’s about numbers, it doesn’t always mean that the majority are always right. What if the majority have been brainwashed(Filipinos, IMO, are very gullible on this side)? I quote Thomas Jefferson:
“A democracy is nothing more than mob rule, where fifty-one percent of the people may take away the rights of the other forty-nine”
I just realized that playing the devil’s advocate isn’t always fun. I had a taste of an “online slap” recently. Hehe. New Year’s resolution ko ata na alisin o bawasan man yun. Hehe. But that’s the beauty of life, we learn. No pain no gain nga ika nila. At least, despite what happened, you(we pala) gained something.
Damn you Shari, I thought you’re coming up with a NEW domain name…. naging com lang yung org… Hehehehe.
Here’s a tip: Save your files on drive D(kung partition yung hard disk mo)! Ta kahit ilang beses pang mareformat yan at magcrash, you can retrieve your files.
TO SHARI:
You’re right at one point, PACMANs VICTORY re-acknowledges the Philippines on the world map again. Very true. You said it yourself, don’t you think this is worthy of praise? Also, by saying PACMANs victory places the Philippines in world map does not mean the Philippines was nothing before (when we talk about rationality, we talk about reason. So how did you come up with this conclusion?) . I never said the Philippines was nothing before and PACMAN fans definitely does not think this way as well. It may just be a matter of describing the scenario in the right words. Re-acknowledging the Philippines on world map or putting the Philippines on world map, both just mean one thing: “PACMAN did something for the country which all Filipinos should be proud of….”. And whatever we say, we always have to look at reality. PACMAN made it possible for a LOT of FILIPINOS to unite. If you watched TV specials on ABS-CBN before PACMAN fights, you would see Filipinos in the US meeting at LAS VEGAS days before the fight to support PACMAN. THOUSANDS, not hundreds. A classic unity which was impressive and REALLY HAPPENED. Police reports here in our country would also point out how crime rate goes down when he fights. You dont have to have facts to believe in this, just go out of your house when he fights, aren’t our streets almost deserted? This is a reality and we cannot deny this. What I am trying to point out in here is reality and THIS IS NOT FORCING you to like him. What I am saying is that “I dont get why you hate him so much…”. He did nothing wrong to you and instead he did something which made us proud. His deeds should have merits, and if we really dont like someone, at least we should be rational enough to acknowledge a GREAT DEED which he has done. And we cannot deny what these great deeds are, because they are already obvious as in PACMANs case.
We are not forcing you to like PACMAN. I never said that as well. In fact, in my previous posts, I explicitly stated “i’m not forcing you to like him….”. What I am asking for is your basis for saying those words against him. Now you say your basis is your feelings and feelings have no basis. By logic, if a=b and b=c, isnt a=c as well. So applying that to your statements, you mean, “I HAVE NO BASIS for hating PACMAN” (logic: “dont like pacman”=”basis is feelings” and “feelings”=”no basis”, therefore, “dont like PACMAN”=”no basis”). If you hate somebody without any basis and posting that publicly (not to mention you criticize him by calling him monkey) is a no, no. I know your intelligent and you get what I mean. But that is already over. You have already apologized and we appreciate such move. What I am just pointing out is that you are a journalist. In the future, if you write articles, have basis for your statements, NOT JUST FEELINGS. Be a genuine journalist as early as now. A courageous person is measured not on how he/she defends his/her statements but on how he/she acknowledges his/her mistakes and change for the better. I dont see that in here. Until now, you never acknowledge that calling PACMAN bad names is wrong and retracting. But then again, I cannot force you, because as you said, THAT IS HOW YOU FEEL. (people always say “opinions are opinions” - that is right, but we have a duty to correct bad opinions, not because we dont agree to them but to help others know what is essential and what is wrong).
About the “going back to the past thing…”, what I am pointing out is that, ” we go back to the past on the assumption we already know the future.”. What is the sense of going back to the past and by doing so forgetting the future. If this is the case, let us not go back to the past then, or else it would only be a nonsensical cycle of loops. As I said, if going back to the past is possible, (for the sake of argument), let us not forget that we have ALREADY EXPERIENCED it and therefore know our mistakes and lessons. So why go back to the past and re-do the mistakes, are we going to learn new lessons? NO, we are only going to learn the same lessons over and over again. So it would be better to go back to the past and apply the lessons we learned from the future right? Otherwise, it would be no use to go back to the past, at least by applying the lessons we learned, we show to the whole world that experience made us stronger.
till then…..
Anyway, an opinion is an opinion. No one has the right to dictate how you think or how you feel.
HI there Shari. How are you now? I felt sad when I read your chatter box last time. Hope you’re okay. Good thing you’re back bloggin’. We miss you! ^_^;; cheer up!
Response to :
Ganito na lang isipin mo…
Shari hates Pacman.
PACMANs BOY loves Pacman.
hate and love = individual preference.
Preferences cannot be forced into someone nor can be changed easily.
Therefore, if Shari hates Pacman, no matter what you do, she hates Pacman. Regardless of what you say, she would still hate Pacman. And maybe because of your harassments, she would hate Pacman even more that she did before. Please note: MAYBE.
Why is it so hard for you people to understand a simple thing like…
“This is my blog, I have all the right to write what I want. It’s my opinion, I exercise the my freedom to speech. It’s my right as a human. Paki-alam mo ba? Nakikibasa ka na nga lang nakikialam ka pa?”
(Uhm… you get the idea. )
People have their own point of views why they like and dislike Pacman. At least that’s how I think. You can read her previews entries to know her reasons, instead of bugging her to repeat what she had said.
One characteristics I hate most about humans is that they crave for respect so much where they themselves do not respect other people’s opinions.
Alright, so you have accused others of making mountains out of molehills when you yourself haven’t budged over those molehills. Whatever transpired between you and the comrades are but minor differences that are supposedly easier to reconcile than political concerns. Not that these differences are dismissed as irrelevant and catching the proposition to have themselves adorn the trash bin ASAP, but there is simply not much time to over-entertain these given the people’s enemies assailing from each cavity accessible to them. It’s not quiescence you garner in the denial to immediately mend contrasting views and sentiments - it’s the pseudo-progressives getting scores and proving Criticism and Self-Criticism alongside Rectification are bullcrap.
You have made your point already. You’ve vented out your personal torments, and even made an attempt to objectify what seemed subjective (e.g. you indeed had objective reasons for your absences in the past). Now, why not face them, hear out their side (I believe this is not only an issue of comrades suggesting that you had unfounded alibis for your absence but also other weaknesses that had accumulated upon the instance you went AWOL), and settle things in a direct manner right away so that the major tasks may be effectively accomplished as one movement that has unified strength? This issue at hand has been long overdue. It’s becoming more of an issue on one’s infallible pride than that of the shortcomings from either party.
Err..I don’t remember reading any entry of yours about hating Pacman and all that jazz. Haha. But I do agree with you that one does not have to be a fan of a fellow Filipino to be patriotic. To each his own, I guess. ^^
Wee. I see you decided to keep ‘misteryosa’ kahit .com na ngayon. Lolz. I’ve updated your link too so yeah.
Belated merry Christmas Ate Shari!
Glad to hear you’re back Shari,
Happy Holidays!
I know it doesn’t mean a lot coming from me, but…
“Cheer up”
there!
hehe
I hope in 2007 you make up for what you missed this year and your regrets this year aren’t as bad as those previously made
Hope you had a nice Xmas
I will never understand why it is that people must flame, bash, or misconstrue other people’s opinions and beliefs. It’s pathetic and shows just what kind of people you are. Closed minded that someone else’s opinion or beliefs must be trashed to make your point valid.
I’m glad to see you’re back Shari. Don’t let these people who have nothing better to do than pester you get you down. In the end, your opinions and your beliefs are the only things that will matter, because they are YOURS.
yey, nakabalik kana! akala ko nagkamali ka ng type kasi .com yung hulihan. lol! merry christmas anyway. sana maging okay na ang health mo. dati hirap din akong matulog, sabi ng isang OJT nung nagtetheater pako, uminom daw ako ng milk tuwing gabi pati wag daw akong mafrustrate pag di ako makatulog..
hope next year brings with it some kind of happiness for you. i know wat you mean by everything you said. im alot like that in some ways. it’ll work out the way u want it to.
To Pacman’s Boy, Pacquiao’s victory does very little for most Filipinos. The Philippines remains a poor country. More people become obsessed with Pacquiao, thinking that they too will become wealthy like him or think that Pacquaio’s victory will have gains for them.
The most successful countries in the world, especially in Southeast Asia, did so not because of boxers and other entertainers but because of the combined efforts of people working in occupations that develop local economies. Their leaders were professionals who worked for decades in manufacturing and agriculture to make their countries economically strong. Those who followed them worked long hours in factories and farms and studied hard in school.
Boxing is a dangerous activity because it causes brain damage and other injuries. Most of the money from it is gained through marketing products that are often not connected to boxing at all or gambling. Many boxers are not that lucky and end up poor and sick.
Boxing should be taught only for self-defense and for exercise. Instead of watching it on TV, people should just practice the sport themselves. And instead of showing it on TV, let’s show more important things like educational programs. That way, we become healthy and more intelligent.
I hope that next year will be a better year for you. I hope things DO get better for you.
pansin ko lang (this does not mean anything serious at all) kahit ano yata sabihin namin (lalo na ni shari) hinahanapan nyo ng butas… haaay.
Enough of the Pacquiao debate. Please use Pacquiao’s name with care ok?
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