Jealousy and Teardrops
Yesterday ended with a blast. Apart from the fact that the heavens, using thunder and lightning and rain as its medium, was (were?) mad at us, I finally made Ange an official Iskolar ng Bayan. Stayed at school overnight to bond with the UP community. Got home at around 8 this morning, relieved to find out that my father had already left for somewhere. Went online for a couple of hours, then slept. Woke up to see and hear Vic Sotto and Aiza Seguerra’s duet on Eat Bulaga. Cried with the talented Aiza when she got quite emotional while thanking her friends and supporters.
So what? Everyone knows that I’m a crybaby.
I’ve been having, well, “romantic issues.” No, I don’t like the guy. I don’t know why he inhabits my thoughts. Maybe this is just a passing crush, but then I’m suddenly gripped with this feeling called jealousy when I learned something. It’s frustrating, really. And with this frustration comes tears. Just so you know that I’m completely serious about completely hating myself for this absolute stupidity and hormonal activity.
Truth is, it hurts to know that there’s someone else, but still I’m glad because if he does get into a relationship with her, I know he’s in good hands. And besides, I find them a very cute couple. 
But I’d be lying if I say that this certain fact has not made me shed a tear or two. Given my emotional nature, it’s only normal.
Someone has mailed me asking why I’ve never mentioned the guy’s name, as I’m quite “popular” for name-dropping no matter what the issues are. Well, isn’t it obvious that I don’t want him to know about this…thing? Everyone reads my web log. It’s a given fact that people from off-line know of my online persona. Even my family and relatives read this. My friends and classmates. My org-mates from TABAK and AB. They make up 50% of total population of readers of my blog. So I’m trying my best to stick to being the Shari everyone knows and loves (and maybe even hates), pouring out everything inside me but not putting people I care for on the spot, taking into consideration that they have their own private lives.
Damn. I can’t believe I’m making the biggest fuss over a petty crush with someone. Pardon the mushiness. I just have to give in. So basically, the past 2 days have been spent doing nothing but crying.
Now you know why I hate Science so much. Especially Chemistry. Damn hormones.
PS: Thanks, Aja, for the help. And I’m willing to exchange links with people who want to exchange links with me. The only “problem” is that I comment on those websites every chance I get, so expect a semi-regular visitor.
That IS something.. Haha. Maybe that something is there but you can’t admit it to yourself… Listen to the radio at night, lots of “love doctors”.. Hehe.
Mangasar daw ba
Sleeping over at your school? Scary prospect.
We always said we’d break in just to do that.. we haven’t get. Hah.
I’m a crybaby also. I cry at the shallowest things.
It’ so cute to have a crush. Kinikilig ka kasi. Haha.
I hope everything will be okay. God bless Ate Shari. Ingat.
Ahh, I love commenting on this thing. Haha, I probably sound like an excited 3 year old.
Awh, I cry all the time, but ususally not over “love issues”
That’s cute that you have a crush, but it’s a good thing that you’re accepting that there’s another person, and you’re not one of those people who would try to break them up or anything. So that’s super nice of you.
Hehe, yeah, everyone’s a crybaby.
Anyways… Aww, sorry to hear about the guy… I really don’t know how you feel about him… Good luck with this “phase”… That is really weird though… Hmm…
Anyways, LOL about telling us his name!! Haha, I never told ANYONE “William’s” name! LOL. But it’s ok, I know what you mean about people reading your blogs. Hehe.
:P hey, thanks for dropping by my blog. anyway, i’m a crybaby too! but sometimes, i hate the fact that i’m a crybaby. haha. anyway, looks like we’re on the same road. :P somebody in my life is also jealous.
haha. and about that name-dropping issue? err, i also hate to mention names in my blog. especially if those are the people whom i dedicate my nonsense posts. *sorry for the wrong grammar* haha. maybe because my online persona and personal characteristics differ. 
Sorry to hear about the guy. There were times when I felt that way too… that the one I really like was better off with someone else, even when we’re together (so obvious who it is, no? :P)
You’ll get over it. Time heals. *hugs* I’m glad you’re being a good sport and not trying to ruin them. I’ve been on the receiving end of that kind of treatment, and thank God you’re not one of them! *hugs again*
if it’s the matters of the heart, it’s an entire different story. and even if it’s really mababaw for other people or even with us, minsan, talagang affected tayo ;p
i hardly ever cry. it takes a lot for me to get that emotional, i think its from always hearing, “what goods crying going to do?” but when i do i actually feel a lot better, but then i feel completely ridiculous for it.
We shall make our way through, anyway. We shall, we shall.
hmmm i think you like him! hahaha…
… joke
:-p
grabe never ko talagang naisip na may pagka-mushy ka pala. haha! para kasing ang loka loka mo (positive yan ah!) na hindi ko naisip na medyo iyakin ka pala pagdating sa guys. hmm.. sana maging okay ka na. wag ka na iyak, lalake lang yan. (aba! nagsalita ang numero unong bakya at iyakin! hahaha!) kaya mu yan. gusto mo hanap kita boylet?? wahahaha! joke lang! ;p
well tell me about it… i had a similar experience! don’t fret, you’ll get over it
isnt it cool to stay overnight in school! lol the last time i did that nung fair. haha! ill probably do it again.
isnt like and crush the same? haha anyway maybe you’ll get infatuated soon lol and doint worry they’re not married yet who knows you might have a chance! j/k
aww i understand how you feel about the crush thing-hopefully it’ll pass,the way you say though,it’s like you dont want to like this person,so maybe it’ll be done and overwith soon enough.Try occupying your mind as best you can so that you block al the thoughts of him out-crying over it’s just gonna make it hurt even more,and maybe last a little bit.
I hope you get well soon!
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hmm , its ok girl , may araw din yan sa iyo
Sometimes, I find myself crying over weird things too. Haha. I’m just like that. :P
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Ooh..just to let you know, I can totally relate. I’ve been feeling the same way about some guy too. Rawr. Stupid hormones and rampaging infatuated feelings. X______x
..I also hate Chemistry. Well..for a different reason that is. ^^
haaay. im so sad shari
feeling ko walang nakakaintindi sa akin.
mahabang istorya. hay. wla lang, wala lang akong makausap ngayon na makakaintindi sakin. and yes, am starting to be in self-pity again. Matagal-tagal ko na din hindi na experience mag self-pity and now am feeling it again
mas okay na para sa akin din kung ‘di mo irereveal ang mga names. privacy eh. i love my privacy. hee.
nako.. shari`s incrush. hehe. i think i know how you feel.. being around the guy and seeing the guy with another girL. ay nako, pero all you can do is just give in a fake smile but deep inside it trully hurts.. it`s life..
naku ha. kakaiba ang nababasa ko nga yon ha! uysss!
alam mo love ko si aiza! naggawa pa nga ako ng fansite para sa kanya.. hehe!!
i love her!!
anyway, same tayo crybabyd in ako, kaya dont worry.. di ka nag iisa!!
Takecare shari
No no, crying to a song does not mean you’re a crybaby.
And crying is good too. Hehe. Are you sure you don’t like him? Well, If he inhabits your thoughts.. i think you do. =P I hate being jealous - the feeling is like so errrg. 
Don’t cry over him my dear, it’s not worth it when he doesn’t know (or does he?)
I’m putting you on my dailies.
I think your “problem” is a “problem” everyone else should have. =P
Ah. I haven’t cried for a while now, but I cry easily too over little things. Hehe. Good luck with your dilemma, wish I could help.
The “problem” is not a problem, haha. Sipag mo nga magcomment eh. That’s something.
shari.. can i hug you for just a while… we both need one.
I have never stayed the night at school. That must be an interesting experience. I wanted to do that when I was younger in high school or junior high, but mostly because I wanted to sleep near my crushes haha.
I know what you mean about the jealousy/crush situation. I had a crush on a guy and everytime he talked to pretty much anyone that wasn’t me I felt extrememly jealous. And then I would get mad at myself because I already have a b/f and shouldn’t be thinking about other guys like that so often.
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Hi liked reading through again
tears for another is a good thing take it from the heart
Wish you well
Uwahh!! I so missed you!! *hugs Shari very very tight*
Nasa LJ muna ako for the mean time. ^_^;; Down website ko eh. T_T
you kinda sounded like Ate ems before :P But I kept telling her, “One day.. One day.. God will give the one for you” I am glad she listened ^^ hehe It maybe a Crush Shari…it may or may not be serious, but if I were you I’ll just give it to God. To save myself from getting hurt. When the time comes God will give the one for you, you’ll see you have no regrets
haha, im a crybaby too at times! X) hehe
sounds like you were very busy and stuff ^^
Sorry to hear you have romantic issuess
Those suck. Jealousy sucks hard. But it’s weird though that you say you don like the guy but you do shed a tear cause he might have found someone.
I do hope you feel better soon though, crying all day isn’t really something fun. Try to get some distraction? Go out with friends or other activities.
I’m glad you had a blast after an overnight stay at your school. I haven’t done that just yet but I believe its more of a college thing so.. I have yet to attempt at one! Hehe.
I haven’t had romantic issues in a while. I’ve been concentrating so much on my studies that I don’t even attempt to have any type of issues romantically. Jealousy is a sucky feeling. I don’t like how it affects me. Rawr.
Shari my lovely sis. Okay lang yan.
It’s normal to have a crush. And we’re all human. And crying is good. *hugs*
Sleeping over at school is…I dunno.
uyy ang girly ata natin ngayon ah.. in love? hahahahahah *peace*
hmm a crush? sounds like fun. thanks for commenting on my blog.
Oh my gosh. It’s almost impossible to believe, but I’m going through the same. Exact. Thing. Don’t worry, we can be the winsome heroines in chick flicks together.
Hormones, sadly, are quite the bitch.
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