She’s Dead….
I went to school yesterday to check on the college freshmen enrollment, and to hang around with my friends. But then I was jolted by the text message my mother sent me about my dog, Bullet….
It was Saturday morning when I noticed something different about Bullet. She seemed really sad. I thought a simple cheering up would do the trick. She was responsive, but not as perky as she usually was. The first time she got sick, she was still bouncy and lively. I knew then that something was wrong.
Sunday, my family and I went out to pig out. Bullet looked tired and downhearted. I vowed to take her to a veterinarian the next day because I was really worried about her behavior.
The text message I got yesterday was an urgent one. My mother wanted me to go home as quickly as I possibly could, because my brother called (using a payphone; fuck PLDT , dammit!) and told her that Bullet threw up blood. Putangina, if jeepneys, FXs, and tricycles could only fly. As soon as I got home, I carried Bullet and took her to a vet, only to find out that the vet clinic was closed. Wala ng vet clinic sa amin. Frustrated, I cried on the way home. My mother just got home when the tricycle stopped in front of the compound. I stormed into the house, sat on the sofa, and cried. I wept - with an almost lifeless Bullet on my lap. I kept calling her, kept telling her that she should get better. We gave her water with lots of sugar, hoping that she would at least perk up.
I was at her side the whole night. Around 9:30PM, I heard a croaking sound beside me. I saw Bullet struggling to breathe. I saw her jerking. I saw her taking her last inhale. I saw her dying. Then I just sobbed my heart out. My daughter was gone.
I still cannot accept her death. I don’t know if I ever will. Thinking about her never fails to make me cry.
OMG! That’s just bloody sad.
I also have a dog, you know. I love him dearly. And I’d probably go ballistic and all if he died.
My condolences.
AW!! I’m so sorry to hear that Shari.
*hugs*
*hugs*
I watched my pet bunny die a few years back too. He was so little. I couldn’t stop crying.
shit! Sobrang sakit nga nyan shari. Honestly i dont know what to say. im speechless. i hate to see my babies die. shit, anong nangyari sa kanya? nakita ko yun pic nya dati na kasama ka. haaay….
I cried after reading this
My dog died a year ago, kind of similar to your situation. By the time we got to the vet, he was already gone. I felt so helpless that I couldn’t do anything to cure him or something. I hated our vet for a while because whenever we took our dog for check up, they keep saying “he’s fine” etc.
Hope you feel better…
I’m literally in tears right now…. I can’t even begin to explain my sorrow for you. I hate reading this. It broke my heart, especially when I saw her pictures. My heart weeps for you. I can’t imagine having to lay next to her and have her die, right there. You must be dieing inside. This pain is so hard… I really hope all the best for you.
Nothing I say will make you feel better, but god, I wish I could try. It really makes me angry the vet was closed. I wonder if it wasn’t, would Bullet still be alive. I am so so sorry.
ooh i’m sorry that is horrible! i have a dog myself and she’s getting older and i don’t even want to think about losing her. i took a look at the pictures of your dog and she seemed like a really cute and beautiful dog.
omg im so sorry i have four dogs & i know are family. wow im just so sorry i cant think of anything else to say.. its so heartbreaking im sorry sweety♥
Oh my dear Shari…my heart sank and I am in tears while reading this post. I am so sorry for your loss…
Thinking of you…*big hug*
i’m all misty now
make me think of my Shaolin…
btw…bryan here
Oh my gosh, Shari!!! I’m just about in tears right now!!!! *hugs* I’m soooooooooo sorry, Shari!!!!
Hope you feel better now. I’m so sorry, Shari.
aaawwww……
sorry to hear that your dog had died
ive never really had a pet but i guess its the same as losing a friend aye? well .. yeah hope youre holding up alright dude
Really really sorry to hear that. That’s why I don’t like pets. I don’t like getting involved too much.
Oh no - loosing your dog is awful. Try focusing on the good things you expirienced with him while he was still amongst the living. Now he probably got wings!
i’m sorry to hear that your dog’s dead…
Haii… I know I can’t say anything to make you feel better… Sorry to hear about that.
Condolence po.
yehey d galit si shari sakin! hehehe..
how are you by now?
Sorry to hear that! Very sad!
For sure he will leave a big void!
oh my…
that was so sad… a family member just died… *sigh* my condolences Shari… Don’t worry, Bullet will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge… -_-”
We already talked about this in YM. But I really am sorry.
I hope you feel better soon.
I’m really sorry about Bullet, sweetie. I know how hard it is. I remember when we lost our beloved dog. It was a couple years ago. The whole family cried, even my dad. It was really sad.. I still dream about her. She was really a part of our family and I’m sure Bullet was, too, and felt that way too.
Oh my God! I feel so, so sorry for you! My cat went to the vet just last week because she’d eaten smt, and they didn’t know if she was gonna be alright or not, that was a horrible two days. I can’t even imagine how you must feel right now, when I thought my cat was gonna die I just cried and cried. I really do feel so sorry for you…
sometimes we get too attached……. its okay to cry…
from,
co xientian, co iska
That’s so sad. I once had a pet too, but I didn’t see him die.
Oh, no.. I’m so sorry.. that’s so sad…
I hope you’re okay.
I got close to the end of your entry untill I just couldn’t take it anymore. I also have a pet I dearly love, and the thought of her dying was just too much for me.
I’m sorry about Bullet, I really am.
awww shari ko im so sorry. must be really hard spesh kc parang anak mo na un. sakit nun lalo na’t nakita mo siyang mamatay. im really sorry talaga
i’m sorry about Bullet… makes me so sad. I never had a pet die but Mimi ran away…
I ‘m sorry about Bullet. Condolence ang hugs for you, ‘dre.
na e-mail ko na sayo yung PW..
awww… xo sad that your dog died.. that happned to me last month! 2 of my dogs died.. yung kay ramises I cant accept kasi mabait yung dog ko na yun
That makes me sad. My dog is dying, so I can understand. It’s hard to know that after 11 years, I won’t have her for much longer.
Hope your ok.
awww… I am so sorry for your lost. I know how it feels to lose a pet you love so much. My cat died three years ago after 13 yrs of having him. Since then I got a new kitty that I feel in love with but my other cat will still always be in my heart.
I’m very, very sorry to hear your loss. I know how it feels to lose a beloved, dear friend. I lost my dog, Miko several months ago. I’d like to think that there’s a place in heaven for our departed pets.
awww. im so sorry to hear about your dog. i’ve seen her picture and she’s really adorable.
it just made me sad. im so sorry..
I’m so sorry for your loss… *hugs*
Oh, I am so sorry. I feel like crying too. I know how you are feeling as I lost my cat about a week ago now. Losing an animal is hard, you love them like your family, and they are always there when you need them. I hope that you feel better soon.
Whenever I hear about a beloved pet sying it breaks my heart. I’m so sorry about your loss. It’s a terrible tragedy when one loses a family member. My dogs didn’t die but we can’t get them back, it’s been almost five months since I’ve seen them, and I still cry whenever I think about them. I know that isn’t a very hopeful thing to say, I don’t know what advice to offer though, I’m still healing my own wounds over losing over my best friends.
awwww. That’s too sad.
I am so so sorry to hear about that.Hope you feeling better now.I know its hard when this happen.I lost two dogs in 3 months and i know the feeling.
Im so sorry Shari. I love dogs as much as you do. I hope you’re okay now.
What?! I’m so sorry, Shari. I have a dog (ironically, I have one even though I’m scared of them) but I don’t actually take care of it. So…it’s not exactly mine now. Anyway, I don’t know what it feels like to have a long time pet. But I know that when my dog passes, my heart will feel heavy.
I’m sorry again for what happened to Bullet.
Gosh, I’m sorry of what happened to Bullet..
woa… im so so sorry. really i am. that is so sad. ive never had a pet but i know what it feels like.. she might be just a dog.. but shes part of the family na right?
awww i hope youre alright..
Re your comment: It’s because KFC doesn’t treat chickens in a humane manner… And I have a soft spot for animals. This is a summary of what they do.
“Crammed by the thousands in factory-farm sheds, bred and drugged so that many become crippled under their own weight, and slaughtered using a process that guarantees that many will be drowned or burned in scalding-hot water while still fully conscious, KFC’s chickens know only misery. Yet the fast-food chain has done nothing to prevent the worst cruelties to chickens inflicted by its factory-farm and slaughterhouse suppliers.”
i am so sorry to hear about your dog. i felt the same thing when my dog that i grew up with died
I’m so sorry to hear about Bullet. I had this dog that I grew up with… he was exactly six months older than me. When I turned twelve, he was diagnosed with cancer. Within a period of five months, he died. I was there with him the entire time, through the sugery and the tubes in his throat. I can even remember the exact time he went in to the vets for the last time. I didn’t think I’d ever stop crying.
My heart goes out to you. Take your time grieving… unfortunately the pain never goes away.
Oh, I’m so sorry to hear about Bullet. If only the vet was opened. Dogs are a part of your family, and it’s really hard to get over their deaths. I’m really sorry, again. It makes me sad to read about things like this. I hope you’ll feel better.
Oh, wow, it was so sad to hear that. I think having a pet die is one of the saddest things. I mean, you create such these strong attachments with them. I hope you feel better though.
When my dog died I had to wear dark glasses for the whole day.
oh no. thats just so sad
i remember when i was younger.. my dog died cause of a car accident. i just got dismissed from school and my yaya fetched me(i was just gradeschool then.lol) and told me our dog died. at first i was stunned and crying a bit but then i was laughing cause i thought she was joking then she showed me her blood stained pants. i still dont believe her and told her that was just ketchup so that she could scare me. when i got home i asked my mom if it was true that our dog died. and she said yes. i was really crying and told her i want to see the dog. she said no cause she was really full of blood. it would traumatized me since i was just young at that time. okay. il stop now. this comment is already like an entry. hahaha. tc 
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