I’m NOT Jealous
It’s just that you could have not told me anything about whatever. You could have just asked how and where I was, said how generally exciting your day went, and left all the other details out — period. Was it really that important to you for me to know about whatever? Did you feel so relieved, or so overjoyed, or somehow so proud that you just had to spill it out? Did you think that you were oh-so-cleverly playing with my imagination?
And while you’re at your game, I’m left here hanging in the open, asking myself if maybe I’m really starting to like you, trying to convince myself that this, too, shall pass, and that I shall survive this confusing ordeal?
I wish I could say this, and so much more, to you personally, but knowing myself, I’d probably just smile at you and stutter whenever I try to say a word. I’d probably just joke around as always, talk about the insignificant things that happened since the last time we saw each other, make pa-cute just so you could notice me as a person and not as some wall you could pour every damned thing you want out.
It’s not easy when I think I’m feeling a twinge of something I’ve never felt in 7 months: jealousy.
Do I forever remain your meantime girl, or do I admit to you myself that maybe, maybe, I do have a crush on you?
i love you
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Hmmm what is that… I smell love in the air or another thing?
Btw, I think it is around 10 days or so from the day the package was sent but dont worry since I had it registered coz I know that some postmen steal stuff. But K and Vince already got theirs and it took only a couple of days. I was so shocked
I honestly can’t relate. I read the linked posts and i really have no idea.
Emo-shit-nal mode, I’d say.
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Farrrt. Didn’t make it… for the 3rd time. How many times shall I promise to attend meet-ups and then make indian at the end? I’m sooo… brrh. can’t take this any longer.
BTW, I tried to make this site using DR’s theme. Bakit ngayon ko lang ginawa ito? Oh well.
Hany Eid: Errr….Huh?
Chase: Oh, it’s probably the lechon, haha. I’ll try to follow up on the mail ASAP.
JJ: Haha, was expecting that question from some people. Problem is, if I do tell the name, would you even know him to begin with? Haha!
Neil: You are thisclose to breaking my heart. Huhu. Coming, my arse. And you had to text me at, what, 3AM, to tell me you wouldn’t be able to come? LOL! Can’t wait for the WordPress version of your blog
Oh no, the whole “love” thing again… LOL, I’m not saying that directly to you!! It’s just that love is soooo confusing/complicated once you get yourself into it!! I’ve ALWAYS hated that! LOL.
You obviously do like this sado but really not for you, Shar. He’s thick, insensitive, uncouth and a total waste of 3 minutes wank under the sheets. Get rid of him. Now.
PS. No worries, there’s a lot of young scrummy guys out there you’d have lots of fun playing wicked, wicked games with.
Simply Precious: It depends, really. The intensity of confusion, I mean, hehe.
Howling: Might as well replace the chocolate you were going to send me with just a bigger package — a boyfriend, maybe? Hehe.
I’m not sure how to comment on this, because I don’t think people are worth their bullshit so were I going to say something, it would be something to the effect of, “I’d can his ass and let him come to you, that oughtta learn him.”, but I really don’t understand half of what’s going on, lol.
Good luck, man, seems like you’re in a pickle.
Why is love so complicated? ;-)
ehem…
I know how it feels — believe me. I hope that you are feeling better now, talaga.
*hugs*
i think it’ll pass. pero hindi naman super bilis na mawawala.
love (and men!) sucks. we’re better off without them. at least i am. halata bang bitter?
ikeeness… iinom nalang uli!!!!!!
not all MEN SUCK! at least not me… Im a nice guy.
i hate being jealous. it’s so…inconvenient.
I read your other blogs which you linked. I really enjoyed reading the ‘meantime girl’ article because I can relate so badly (well not about the sex thing, but about the situation in general).
It sounds like this guy you’ve been crushing on doesn’t realise how much you care for him, so perhaps you should tell him. You shouldn’t let him walk all over you like that. Why shouldn’t you be the girl who opens doors with smiles for once?
8s better to love that not at all.. go fall..
Love problems? I am a total idiot in this matter. *turns away in shame*
Being in love is inspiring when good things happen, but it has a lot of negative effect when things are not going smoothly..
Sometimes I think life is more peaceful when I’m not in love. 
I hate being jealous. People seem to hate me sometimes cuz I’m such a selosa. Pero that’s the way I am..
Anyway, I know how you feel… Is whatever a girl? Hmmmm…
i’m not a man hater but there are times i transformed into one. i just hate how man manipulates the feelings of their partners and their girls.
you’re not a meantime girl, you’re too good to be one. if he wants you to be his meantime girl, go and kick his ass.
i know what you’ll say, it’s easier said than done. but trust me, it’ll definitely feel so good when you’ll be able to do that.
men are so insensitive.. and why is that? i have no idea. if he already knows you like him, then why the f* is he telling you whatever? insensitive! clearly, he is not thinking. hay.. guys like him are not worth it.
Ugh. Almost all my friends are fussing about guys. Most of them insensitive ones. UGH!
ohh. d ko dn alam ang ssbhn ko dito very speechless ako.. though it brings back old memories..
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first time to comment.
women are just as hard to read, and are as insensitive at times. yun lang masasabi ko. hehe.
does he know what you feel? maybe it will be more clear if he does. at least if he doesn’t know and you let him know, it can be over and done with earlier, I think.
OK dear, from my “been there, done that” files: you need to figure out if (1) you really like/love this guy or (2) he’s your meantime guy as well — but your ego is bruised because he sees you the same way and so you’re confusing your hurt feelings with, well, unrequited love and all that icky stuff.
If it’s the former then stop what you’ve been doing and put some distance between the both of you. Either you’ll have to get over him (and the only way to do that is to stay away, at least until you do) or so that he can start seeing you a different way. He might be a jerk or actually a nice guy, but people do what they want if they can get away with it. Always remember: we teach people how to treat us.
If it’s the latter then have fun, don’t stress, and then move on when it’s time. Just don’t get stuck — you’re way too smart for that.
Hi! I’ve been lurking for a few weeks now. Kaw pala yung author ng Meantime Girl. I read that piece somewhere, finorward ata sa email.
Hmmm… it’s okay to be jealous to a certain extent. But as far as I can tell from your linked posts, he’s not worth it. You’ve already confessed, and he has power with this knowledge. Now he’s making you feel jealous on purpose. I’m sure he’s a great guy to you, but sorry, he’s an ass.
Naku naman shari.. hala. Eh normal lang naman mag selos eh. Lalo na situation mo. Kasi di ka pa mashadong aminado kung gusto mo ba tlaaga sha or what not. But darlin` u should know na normal lang yan. Kaso pag nag tagal yan, it can get worse. Kaya ngayon palang, make sure alam mo kung ano ba talaga ang gusto mo.
Lei: You’re not bitter. You’re just telling the truth, lol.
Trench: Hey! I didn’t say anything to the effect of “men suck” noh! Defensive, haha!
Catzie: Whatever is the situation.
Janelle: Eek, women do the same. In fact, I think women generally make the manipulating of feelings more frequently.
Nickle: He’s insensitive because he doesn’t know, haha.
Ninong: I have no intention of telling him. Like I said, I hope this is just a passing crush. Just had to let the frustration out for once, that’s why I wrote about it.
Gigi: Haaay, that’s the thing. I’m not even sure if I really like him.
Roanne: Oops, the linked post about the confession is a different story altogether, hehe. Just linked to it to reinforce the fact that I can really tell guys how I feel about them.
Nina: I hate the feeling. Parang lagi ako napapaisip kasi talaga kung ganun o ganito o ganyan ba. Ewan ko ba.
Aw, don’t you hate that feeling? It sucks BIG time. Although, I’ve only been jealous once, but that’s because I had a reason too.
Unrequited love is the most painful one…
aww..dont worry. you’ll find someone WAY better than..him.
hala..sign number 1, confusion. di lang ata crush, in love ka?
love yah girl.
oh well, that’s why i don’t want to have bigger/greater commitments to guys.. it’s because i just hate it when i feel hurt.
i saw you in my morning paper today!
nice.
Baka naman gusto lang nyang mag-share, and knowing na close kayo sayo nya shinare. Hehe, o diba, pinagtanggol ko daw.
Wag ka magalala, dadating din yung right one para sayo.
Acceptance is the best solution to your problem ate Shari. And if he’s not the one for you, many other guys would come your way.
can you not try to be a little b*tchy?
guys like that. i like that too.
why b*tchy ladies get their men is because they speak their thoughts out, and assert themselves. they don’t whine in the corner and watch how other girls’ break their heart into smithereens.
Oh btw, Shari. How about try using: http://www.78y.net to access my site? (It’s a proxy server)
I don’t believe in having someone “meant” for me. Love is a decision. In your case, it is up to you if you’re going to continue caring for this person, knowing the consequences of such action, or if you will not care for him anymore and DECIDE that you will move on and live your life. Nobody assigns people like “this person is for you…this guy is better for her…this girl is good for this guy, etcetera”. It’s the person’s decision whom to care for. So you have a great power in this one, Shari. Just choose.
I agree with Prudence on this one. Liking someone is a choice - not a fate. It’s fate to meet someone. It’s your choice what you wanna do with the person you just met.
I guess it has something to do with love yea? I don’t really understand though. Hmm I hope everything goes well.
Love is in the air… and it stinks!
Oh gawd nothing beats an emoshitnal post.
Jealousy is Natural. But I guess you can’t settle the problem without consulting the other one. I guess you do need a heart to heart talk to this person. I don’t say it will solve everything but it will help. (at least he/she will know your feelings).
But if this is a… story… then nevermind hehe
I added you on my blog list here ok?
http://chettedizon.wordpress.com the other testimony blog is not working anymore hehe.. Well you may think it is not necessary but I added you because you’re a friend
Thanks!
Naalala ko yung ex ko.
He always talks about his past relationships.. ako naman, smile-smile lang. Pero deep inside, I was freaking jealous. I mean, hello! Sila ba ang kasama mo?
Hay. Anyway, I guess it’s okay to be jealous.
I just try to enjoy the time I spend with my crush. But sometimes, it just hurts to much that you’d want to just stay away which often than not is makes things worse.
My humble advice, just always be there for him. Who knows, love might just blossom along the way. But don’t be hard on yourself. If some one comes along, leave your crush.
one of the many topics that i dare not talk about too much, but then…
tell the fellow. if he says he’s cool about getting it on, great. if he isn’t into you but he’s cool with what you just admitted, fine, back to regular programming. if he runs away with his tail between his legs, well, you’re better off without the yeller dawg.
life’s too short. my two cents.
(of course, complications are rife every which way heh heh)
hi Shari… d ko makita yun tagboard (ulit) kaya dito nalang ako magre-reply. naku sorry talaga dun sa joke never really ment to hurt you…
…. hmmmm are you talking about the same guy? or iba na ito?
wow thats something serious lol i hope you can figure out your feelings.
toto ba yung sinulat mo or gawa gawa lang, just asking
kasi parang familiar eh.
cool site:)
jelousy is a sin… pero hinde natin maiiwasn yun lalo na pagnagmamahal… take it easy… remember you have no right pa para magselos… and think twice… para hinde masktan
Men think they’re smart and they outsmart us in so many ways. And when they get busted, no fessing up, and no apologies. If that’s the case, he only damaged himself and lost the opportunity to something great.
I feel you definitely on this post, but I don’t know quite what to say? ^-^
Maraming salamat nga pala sa pagdaan sa blog kong nilalangaw na.
Medyo nanginig ang mga mata ko nu’ng nabasa ko ang “meantime girl.” Naging “meantime guy” na rin kasi ako dati. Kunyari importanteng sabihin ‘yan.
Minsan ko na ring naisip (habang nakaupo sa inidoro), na may mga bagay talaga na mas magandang iwanan na hindi na binabanggit. Sa nabasa ko, ikaw na ang magpasya kung ang naisip kong ito ay para sa’yo o para sa kanya.
Anong uri man ng reaksyon, kung ito ay biglaan mong naramdaman nang hindi inaasahan, ay patuloy lamang na apektado ka sa tao.
Pormal ko na nga palang idadagdag ang link mo sa blog ko. Para masaya.
Ugh I hate feeling that way.
Jenny: Di ko nga sigurado kung crush talaga eh, hehe.
Badoodles: Trust me, I can be bitchy. But I don’t even know if I really like the guy, or maybe I just got quite jealous because he spent time with another girl (and maybe more than that — who the hell knows?)
Doc Tess: I know. I agree. But in this case, I don’t have to decide on anything because I myself don’t have an idea what’s really going on.
Chette: Haha, you GOT me!!!
Jhed: Exactly. Ikaw kasama, ibang babae kinekwento. Juskoday.
Schumey: Weeeh, I’ll leave him stranded somewhere, hehe.
The Jester-in-Exile: One word: hard. I thought of that, but this might be just a case of what we call a passing fucking crush. Maybe.
Shane: Jealousy? A sin? Sin against whom? Your god?
While the other devoted Christians say it’s just normal….
Tee: Haaay, hard to say anything when you feel the same noh?
Jake the Miserable: Sigurado naman ako maraming naka-relate dun, kahit ako naman eh.
Basta…screw him! Haha!
Maybe you can tell the guy that he’s your crush.